Brand Spankin New Chapter in My Life
Where do I even start? It's been two years since my last entry and wow, so much has changed in my life. I guess I'll just start where my ADHD mind will take me and the first thing that comes to mind is this...I joined our local 10 Fitness gym not too long after my last entry. I made new friends there, friends who I'd gone to church with for years, but new friendships with them. After being at the gym a few times together my friend, Mandy, became my first ever gym partner. Boy, we kicked it good. We split the use of a personal trainer for about six months and then took on the training ourselves. It was awesome to say the least! But to explain that, I'll have to take you back to a much earlier time in my life...a time that was dark and quite frankly scary. You can stop reading now if you want, or if you choose to go further, I want to warn you...I'm going to reveal some dark secrets from my past, secrets that I don't take lightly, but I take them serious enough that I want to share them with you. It's not easy for me to be so open and vulnerable about all this, but it's weighed on my mind lately that I need to talk about it with someone...maybe someone who doesn't know me at all, or doesn't know me like this. But anyway, here it goes...
I was 13 years old in junior high. Puberty hit me like a rock flung out of a slingshot. I literally went from a size 3 to 9 over a single weekend, or so it seemed. But, trust me, it was whirlwind fast. My hips were wide and my body was just pudgy. I wasn't big by any means, but for a kid who had always been on the smaller side, suddenly I found myself blossomed like a bloomin onion from Outback. I don't remember the class I was in when the incident that changed my life happened, but I remember the boy (whose name I WILL NOT MENTION because he has no idea what he said hurt me and I can't imagine he would even remember saying it) who said it. Kids are kids even still these days and kids say things they shouldn't without realizing how it might hurt another kid and most of the times we just shrug off these things and don't carry them with us 30-something years. Well, I'm the girl who did carry the memory with her. I'm 45 years old and to this day, I can still remember the words he teased me with..."Kim has thunder thighs..." Those words have haunted me nearly every single day of my life. My name is Kim, I'm 45 years old, and I struggle with an eating disorder. Yes, that's me. A middle-aged woman battling a 32-year battle with an eating disorder...a body dysmorphic disorder...me...People close to me know this already, but most don't know how far the disorder has taken me, but the point of getting into this was to explain the significance of me joining a gym. For once I was trying to get fit and lose weight a healthy way. So let's leave the eating disorder here for now and get back to the purpose of the explanation...
Mandy and I worked hard the 10. We met there almost every morning and did our cardio, our weights, whatever we wanted to work on. I had finally gotten my eating and exercise in synch and managed to lose about 7 pounds the right way! But, of course, it came to an end. It was February 2018 and I caught the flu. So, my good eating went away and I started eating things I had to in order to get better...dry toast, drinking Sprite...and it just went to the crapper from there. And when summer came, I disappeared from the gym and just did nothing. When school started back in August, we headed back to the gym and started back up. Of course, I wasn't as dedicated as I was when I was seeing real success, but at least I was there. And come September is when another huge change in my life came. I decided to take a job...not just any job, but a was going to be a cashier in the lunch room at the high school. And where in the heck did that come from??? All I can say is it must have been a God thing. I'd been blessed to be at home working since 2000, being able to be home with the girls as they started and continued through school. This job would allow me to be on their schedule, have summers and holidays off with them, but allow me to make a little money at the same time. And the job turned out to be an awesome move for me. The ladies I work with are like no others...they are truly fun to work with and the job itself is pretty great. Did I mention I only work 5 hours a day? So I still have time to do errands or keep appointments! It was a win-win and I am so glad I made the decision to apply for the job. I love my SHS Family!!!
My girls have grown up big time in the last two years. Soph is a Sophomore and RB is in the 5th grade. I couldn't be more proud of both of them. And, another biggie...after living 20 years in the house we built we made the decision (or Travis would say I wore him down ;) to sell our house and move. Granted, it's only 4 miles from our previous home, but it's a complete different everything. The new house is two story, has 2 acres, and is an open concept. The old house was one story, 1 acre, and not really open. And the biggest plus, both girls have their own bathroom. The move has been great (although the moving process, not so great) and I can't wait to do life out here in the "country."
The last entry I made told of the failed adoption attempt we made at getting Chico, the Xolo. Well, turns out God did have other plans for us. Travis' brother and his family had a little dog that their new baby turned out to be allergic to. That's where we came in. We took her in. And life has been an adventure ever since Atley, the Yorkie mix, came to live with us. She is Mimi's complete polar opposite (hey, just like my girls, Soph and RB, haha). She's playful and social...Mimi doesn't play and isn't social. She hates car rides where Mimi adores them. She lives Mimi and Mimi hates her. Mimi is very jealous when At wants to sit with me...It's been an adjustment, but our lives are more complete now that Atley is here with us.
I'll pick back up on the eating disorder another time, maybe even next entry. But for now laundry is calling. Tomorrow is President's Day 2019 so we're all home from school. We're looking forward to Spring Break where we'll venture out on the Carnival Freedom for our sixth cruise. Life is an adventure for sure, and no one knows how it's gonna turn out. But, the journey is full of ups and downs, all of which I wouldn't trade for the world. So, until next time, I'll leave you with this...
The life we live
Doesn't always go the way we planned,
But put your trust in God
And know it's already been sifted through his Hands.
I was 13 years old in junior high. Puberty hit me like a rock flung out of a slingshot. I literally went from a size 3 to 9 over a single weekend, or so it seemed. But, trust me, it was whirlwind fast. My hips were wide and my body was just pudgy. I wasn't big by any means, but for a kid who had always been on the smaller side, suddenly I found myself blossomed like a bloomin onion from Outback. I don't remember the class I was in when the incident that changed my life happened, but I remember the boy (whose name I WILL NOT MENTION because he has no idea what he said hurt me and I can't imagine he would even remember saying it) who said it. Kids are kids even still these days and kids say things they shouldn't without realizing how it might hurt another kid and most of the times we just shrug off these things and don't carry them with us 30-something years. Well, I'm the girl who did carry the memory with her. I'm 45 years old and to this day, I can still remember the words he teased me with..."Kim has thunder thighs..." Those words have haunted me nearly every single day of my life. My name is Kim, I'm 45 years old, and I struggle with an eating disorder. Yes, that's me. A middle-aged woman battling a 32-year battle with an eating disorder...a body dysmorphic disorder...me...People close to me know this already, but most don't know how far the disorder has taken me, but the point of getting into this was to explain the significance of me joining a gym. For once I was trying to get fit and lose weight a healthy way. So let's leave the eating disorder here for now and get back to the purpose of the explanation...
Mandy and I worked hard the 10. We met there almost every morning and did our cardio, our weights, whatever we wanted to work on. I had finally gotten my eating and exercise in synch and managed to lose about 7 pounds the right way! But, of course, it came to an end. It was February 2018 and I caught the flu. So, my good eating went away and I started eating things I had to in order to get better...dry toast, drinking Sprite...and it just went to the crapper from there. And when summer came, I disappeared from the gym and just did nothing. When school started back in August, we headed back to the gym and started back up. Of course, I wasn't as dedicated as I was when I was seeing real success, but at least I was there. And come September is when another huge change in my life came. I decided to take a job...not just any job, but a was going to be a cashier in the lunch room at the high school. And where in the heck did that come from??? All I can say is it must have been a God thing. I'd been blessed to be at home working since 2000, being able to be home with the girls as they started and continued through school. This job would allow me to be on their schedule, have summers and holidays off with them, but allow me to make a little money at the same time. And the job turned out to be an awesome move for me. The ladies I work with are like no others...they are truly fun to work with and the job itself is pretty great. Did I mention I only work 5 hours a day? So I still have time to do errands or keep appointments! It was a win-win and I am so glad I made the decision to apply for the job. I love my SHS Family!!!
My girls have grown up big time in the last two years. Soph is a Sophomore and RB is in the 5th grade. I couldn't be more proud of both of them. And, another biggie...after living 20 years in the house we built we made the decision (or Travis would say I wore him down ;) to sell our house and move. Granted, it's only 4 miles from our previous home, but it's a complete different everything. The new house is two story, has 2 acres, and is an open concept. The old house was one story, 1 acre, and not really open. And the biggest plus, both girls have their own bathroom. The move has been great (although the moving process, not so great) and I can't wait to do life out here in the "country."
The last entry I made told of the failed adoption attempt we made at getting Chico, the Xolo. Well, turns out God did have other plans for us. Travis' brother and his family had a little dog that their new baby turned out to be allergic to. That's where we came in. We took her in. And life has been an adventure ever since Atley, the Yorkie mix, came to live with us. She is Mimi's complete polar opposite (hey, just like my girls, Soph and RB, haha). She's playful and social...Mimi doesn't play and isn't social. She hates car rides where Mimi adores them. She lives Mimi and Mimi hates her. Mimi is very jealous when At wants to sit with me...It's been an adjustment, but our lives are more complete now that Atley is here with us.
I'll pick back up on the eating disorder another time, maybe even next entry. But for now laundry is calling. Tomorrow is President's Day 2019 so we're all home from school. We're looking forward to Spring Break where we'll venture out on the Carnival Freedom for our sixth cruise. Life is an adventure for sure, and no one knows how it's gonna turn out. But, the journey is full of ups and downs, all of which I wouldn't trade for the world. So, until next time, I'll leave you with this...
The life we live
Doesn't always go the way we planned,
But put your trust in God
And know it's already been sifted through his Hands.
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